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Tortured For Life!!!!

jasonbaggaley — Sun, 03 Oct 2010 00:51:06 +0000

I scream tonight ”Is it me, am I at fault, am I meant to suffer”, previously i spoke about pushing through and never giving up….I will always be that person…always, but now some of the reason’s that make me the person I am reveal themselves. I feel this uncontrolable rage that lives inside me boiling, there is a breaking point coming, I can feel it, but Is it me or am I in the right, I don’t know. The cause as always with me is Love, I am just a fool when it comes to love, not weak, just a fool. I’m a stirring soul awake in a dream. This is a short post just to try and get rid of some temper. Don’t let the world get you down, no matter how hard it pushes on you, push harder, push with your soul. Your too important to let this world break you. Take the bad things that happen and remember the pain and loss that came with them, and remember, you are still here. If I could take your hand and shield you from the hurt of the world, I would, but I can’t. Find your limits, find your boundries…then break them open. Take chances. Untill next time we meet, Keep living. The burdens that lay heavy on your shoulders are getting heavier arn’t they?? That just means the greatness is coming. Goodbye.

Life And Everyting Else!!!

jasonbaggaley — Sat, 02 Oct 2010 18:43:52 +0000

First let’s us do the pleasentries….hello, hope all is well in your world. Now that’s done, let’s begin. The topics Ii have in my mind are just to complex and impossible for me to put into words…I could speak them but putting them on here is very hard,so it may become slightly mixed but go with it i’m sure there’s something in here for you……

You know the funny thing about life….there isn’t a man, woman, child, nor beast who knows what the hell they are doing. There is no plan for anyone…fact!!! No blueprint, no instructions….now depending on what type of person you are, you’ll hear that and see two things either, one that’s life unfair, no help. Or you’ll see it like me, no boundries, no hold-ups, there is literally no limits to what you can be and/or achieve…You are the single greatest gift you will ever be blessed with. Life is predominatly made of a few things. I personally believe it’s the following. Pain-you go through things in life that tear your soul apart, I look back on a few things in my life and think, how…just how did you ever get throught that, well the answer is simple, I didn’t leave without scars. But that’s not what matters, it’s the change that occurs, I’m not the person I was 5 years ago, that person isn’t gone, he’s dead. I’m someone else now. But that’s life though, it’s not easy and you have no control over it, but you have absoulute control over yourself.

People-people are so annoying. The majority of the world think that there not good enough. Wrong you can be better than you ever thought possible, the biggest obstacle to ever overcome, bigger than fear. Is you! If you believe your not good enough then you arn’t. The mind is the single greatest instrument you will ever own. This topic will be continued, right now there’s something I have to do…Keep living.

Hello, Let’s have a talk…we haven’t done that for a while.

jasonbaggaley — Wed, 06 Jan 2010 20:03:30 +0000

So to begin….well lets start at the beginning. You have (wisely) stumbled across the blog and diary of thoughts of me. My name…or rather my other alias is The Oak. This is nothing more than a place to store the rather jumbled thoughts of a 21-year-old with the mind of a soul that has lived a thousand years. I am young by any standards, life is just beginning, but what a journey it’s been to get here. Time emotion and scars are the very quintessence of my life. When i reflect on my life thus far I am often hit by an uplifting, nostalgic and rageful blow. It’s the sequences and events that have took place in my life that have made me who I am today, that and the fact that, since the day I was born, I’ve seen the world without tainted eyes.

This section I’m going to cover a topic that is very important to me and should be to you all to….Love.

I hate the fact that I was constantly told when growing up…’You don’t know what love is yet, it changes drastically when your older you’ll see’. They (the world is mostly referred to as ”They”. Just to avoid digression). My love i felt, true love was being stolen and deformed, labeled instead as just some teenage infatuation. I remember the day and time of the first time I fell in love. I remember because that day, that very infinitesimal second my whole life changed. Love at first sight, as cliché as it sounds, true love can happen and it happened to me when I was very young. Like i said, I’m young but my soul has lived an older life.

With the events of my youth, events I won’t go into fully here, but it’s safe to say I was repeatedly taught to believe that love is a farce, a ridiculous non-existent emotion that should be void. Alas, they tried so hard yet failed. I was taught not to value love but all I searched for was true love. Not a soul-mate or kindred spirit, no, a separate person, different as apples and stars but connect nonetheless. I found it. For what is nothing but a dot on the line of infinite time from the world, there is a point where two peopled loved and for a short time, shared a life. We fought….bad, we argued, we said out hate to each other. Love isn’t perfect thats a fact, but that’s the fact that makes it perfect. Would you really want everything handed to you without a scratch. Would you really…not me, not ever. You have to struggle for things, other wise how do you know what it’s worth, how do you know what your worth? You are never as fully tested as when your in true love. Your soul becomes visible and your strength is constantly tested, so you have two questions to ask yourself. One, Is this worth it? And two, would you rather be anywhere else. Youth is of insumountable importance, such is the saddness that most don’t realise until its far too late. When, in years from now, the light of your life is all but faded and your reflecting on the years lived, it wont be that promotion or that your were successful in business that flashes past your eyes, it will be the moments of seemingly unimportance, the ones that were more important than any other, you know of the ones I speak.

The first time you said ‘I love you’ and were told it back, that walk in the pouring rain in the trees with the one who claimed your heart, that time you lay down in the world with her/him and let life continue it’s hustle and bustle and you both just lay there and let time, the seconds, minutes and hours land where they may. These will be the moments that stain your life.

If you gain one thing from these pages then I hope it’s that you become more aware of your own life. Every second is precious. There is no boundaries, no limits to what you can become, don’t ever stop. If there’s something you want let no one stand in your way, it’s not there place or anyone elses to tell you no. These are my words, they may fall on deaf ears or help the helpless. I hope it’s the latter. Untill next time. Keep searching. Goodbye.